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[09 Sep 2009|10:54pm] |
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too much inside of me
emotional destruction
wont let you have me
vulnerable evening
so far up
so far down...down...down
here i am fumbling my excuses to stay
what sorry excuses are they
thoughtful words forgotten long ago
i must walk away
my heart tugs NO
hearts will lie in moments like these
i have seen it before
not just in the movies
when the eyes wander
so does the heart
walk away
it will be hard
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| you are not born a woman..you become one. |
[20 Feb 2008|01:35pm] |
so much has changed in the past couple years. hard to explain really..all that i know is that i am glad to finally be where i am.
by wisdom a house is built.
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[23 Sep 2007|05:42pm] |
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sometimes ii feel so distant
from this world
this world that surrounds me
sometimes i am just a hypacrite
some days i wish i could stay inside my brain
without interruption
meditation
go beyond this
moments..some days i feel alone
most days i am happy to be alone
strange
what i want. what i feel
just mysteries
unsure
truth i says truth is worth finding
well why
why is truth so hard to accept sometimes? ..damn ego!
somedays you will find me with a puzzle written on my face
you will pin me for angry/upset
i do not wish for questions or comments
simply alone time.
i love my feel time. my think time. simply my time.
the past couple of years it has been extremely hard for me to let people in my life.
im not really sure if that is destructive or careless..
i need to open up.
problem is..when people surround me all i want to do is hide.
observe.
i like space. must find space.
go climb a tree!! EXACTLY!! =]
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[30 Aug 2006|01:37am] |
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i cannot wait
nothing has ever felt so real or right
breathing in crisp fresh humboldt county air
watching people walk by that look nothing like the people back home
some have similar styles but something is still so very different
it lies in the eyes
they have depth, truth and love behind those eyes
i am fully anticipating sharing a town with these wonderful souls
and to share the experience with the ONE i truly love the most
if any of you out there in internet land see me one day
and think to yourself[or gossip to all of your pals]
whoa...that girl is different, she didnt used to be like that in high school
damn fucking right
i am no longer suppressed by my own insecurities
you wont see me with pounds of make-up on my face or trying to blend in at some show
i have been there and i will try my best not to judge you for the choices you make
but i will always wish more for you
dont get me wrong i have insecurities but i am just learning to embrace them
i am strong
strong for what i have been through
strong for what i have seen
strong for embracing change
we are all strong if we allow ourselves to be
i have love
and by love i do not mean a simple word thrown between two people
i mean what i cant describe yet is written all over my face
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[30 Apr 2006|07:21pm] |
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hope
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[27 Feb 2006|11:50pm] |
today
It's time to listen to the universe. Believe it or not, there's a specific destiny in mind for you, a divine place that only you can fill. The path may not be easy, but you can climb it if you have some faith
tomorrow
How well do you understand yourself? Come on -- be honest. You may understand a few things, but there are far more layers and complications than you think. Spend some time paying attention to your inner workings
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| to see is a choice |
[27 Feb 2006|11:06pm] |
this is all to strange to comprehend
wait i take that back
it is strange to know that so many do not comprehend nor care to comprehend reality
i really dont enjoy thinking of what is to come of our world
if only everyone had to figure things out for themselves
maybe more would search for real truth
truth beyond the comfortable tradition most are spoon-fed from the moment they enter this world
truth beyond a figure. truth beyond materialism. truth beyond "truth"
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[30 Jan 2006|11:37am] |
- There are more than two hundred different kinds of kristen!
- The difference between kristen and a village is that kristen does not have a church!
- A chimpanzee can learn to recognize itself in a mirror, but kristen can not!
- There is no lead in a lead pencil - it is simply a stick of graphite mixed with kristen and water.
- You should always store kristen in an airtight container in the fridge.
- Only fifty-five percent of men wash their hands after using kristen!
- Kristen can eat up to four kilograms of insects in a single night!
- Kristenicide is the killing of kristen!
- Baby swans are called kristen.
- An average beaver can cut down kristen every year!
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| key to life[or something of similar value] |
[12 Jan 2006|02:28am] |
realizing that you already have everything you need.
yes, such a simple statement...but once you finally SEE that you already have everything you need, everything else seems so insignificant, so silly.
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| inappropriate sensitivity[its true] |
[11 Jan 2006|11:48am] |
| Your Birthdate: March 1 | 
You are a natural born leader, even if those leadership talents haven't been developed yet.
You have the power and self confidence to succeed in life, and your power grows daily.
Besides power, you also have a great deal of creativity that enables you to innovate instead of fail.
You are a visionary, seeing the big picture instead of all of the trivial little details.
Your strength: Your supreme genius
Your weakness: Your inappropriate sensitivity
Your power color: Gold
Your power symbol: Star
Your power month: January |
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[09 Jan 2006|07:26pm] |
i used to admire my father.
i used to hold such respect for that man in my heart.
i used to believe that he was different.
things change.
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| i wish i could have wrote it myself... |
[29 Dec 2005|12:39am] |
To laugh often and much; To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; To appreciate beauty, to find the best in others; To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.
This is to have succeeded.
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| as if you will be reading my livejournal.... |
[22 Dec 2005|11:03pm] |
more than a few drinks for more than just a farewell.
this is a celabration of her life
i have so much respect for this woman who has taught and shared so very much with me.
life comes and goes and to be very honest noone really truly KNOWS what is to come next
a mind opening experience
a life altering breathe
i cant help but hurt, as insignificant as that feels
a true woman i am so very proud to have known
i will know her forever
and she will live on in my walk
cheers to my sue
you were always so much more than a companions mother to me
thank you always
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[21 Dec 2005|11:38am] |
painful realizations
set in
over and over again
i try to bob my head and not listen to what they say
but i am too attentive
for my own good
why is it that conformity is praised
while creativity is pushed under
tradition is comfortable
conformity is comfortable
i just have to keep reminding myself
that i am not in search of the comfortable things in this life
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[18 Dec 2005|04:17pm] |
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dig deeper.
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[13 Dec 2005|07:33am] |
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To sin by silence when they should protest makes cowards of men. --Abraham Lincoln
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[07 Dec 2005|06:58pm] |
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silence rings loud and clear
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